My Father

I knew that you were crying when you couldn’t fulfill my wishes. But you didn’t let the tears come down. You were crying because you knew that I had given up my desire for pleasure, not to hurt you. But you didn’t let the tears come down. Your love and compassion made my sacrifice look meager. I owe you a lot, my Father. You did justice to your responsibility as a father but didn’t wait for me to do justice to my responsibility as a son. Father, I cannot keep the tears hidden in my eyes as you did. The tears come running down my eyes each time i think of you.
GOD, it has almost been a decade since you took my father away from me. GOD, please ensure that his soul rest in peace.

But iam not that bad either.

I still like to cherish the memories of that particular day. Indeed it was a great day in my life. You know why? It was on this special day that GOD decided to come to see me. I saw HIM for real, though in my dreams. Yes, it was in my night dreams.
It has been more than a decade now since I saw HIM. Everyday before sleep I wish I could see HIM again. But years passed by, HE never came again!!
Why did HE not come again, I asked myself? Then my conscience told me” When HE came in your dreams, you were an innocent boy. Your heart was sacred and there was no ego, hatred, jealous, anger in your mind. But now, you have become a man”
Yes, my conscience was right, Iam no longer an innocent boy which I used to be!!
But iam not that bad either. This is the phrase that suits most of us. “Not that bad”.
All of us, at some point of time show signs of ego, hatred, jealousy and anger.
I know that these are the signs that I need to get rid off so as to see HIM again in my dreams.
But I will never give up. I will once again and for good be that innocent boy again!!